Lately I have felt truly tested in every aspect of my life. There’s a lot of things I want to take care of and don’t have the means for it. I was hoping with Spring here and with all the flowers and plants blossoming that there is still hope for that “money tree” to pop up right in my own back yard. It’s highly unlikely that one will be budding any time soon. Although I might actually have a better chance of that happening over winning the mega millions. I have to weigh my options here.
There has been a recent career opportunity that has finally come into play which definitely will change things around for me. It’s going to take a few weeks for the extra income to start rolling in, but I have to stay positive or else my stress just will then literally break my system down. It’s not pretty, believe me. We all have our ups and downs and although I am currently in a down point, there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
My last test and most recent of events, yes, it’s a guy who is unlike any other guy I’ve been associated with. I really don’t have guy friends, let alone one I can completely open up to. We are friends with potential for so much more. We talk for hours about anything, everything, we laugh and already we are saying things at the exact same time. There’s major chemistry, but also there’s about two hours of driving distance between us as well. We’ve both been hurt and strung along in past relationships, but him and I know there’s something here worth investing more time into. I don’t want to ruin what we already have by doing anything that we aren’t the same page about. We are just taking it slow I guess, no need rushing into something when we already have a good thing. Although we almost kissed. I wanted a kiss but didn’t go for it. I was hoping he would but he didn’t. So when that moment comes to say our good byes, he read me like a book. He could see how much I wanted to kiss him and basically admitted it too. He literally contemplated and analyzed the hell out of “this kiss” and what it would mean, what happens afterwards (emotionally and physically), saying that it’s not that he doesn’t want to, but it’s something we will save for later. He also said we can take turns driving out to see each other which sounds ideal. So it ended with a great big warm long hug, which was still very nice. Although I must confess, I miss him already.
